Off day

Sep. 1st, 2010 01:50 pm
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I screwed up my knee jumping from the truck. It's the old injury, but the jumping and being run down (I worked on Sunday, so even though on the calendar it's Wednesday, I felt like it should have been Thursday) and also catching something because I don't have my layering hoodies (yeah, my luggage is still horribly lost. I have almost nearly given up on it, to tell the truth. It also does give me an excuse to buy new hockey hoodies and shirts) so I woke up barely able to walk, exhausted and sniffling.

I called in sick and it was all right, despite feeling fucking guilty about the situation. But considering that I was moving like I was 80, what was the point of coming in and not doing a good job of it? I'm hoping that with the rest I'll be back to near normal tomorrow. I can walk more and even though my knee feels a bit puffy, I can bend it and with a bit more rest, I should be clear-headed for tomorrow.

I'm feeling better now, but I'm sneezing now because of the cold I'm starting to catch. Or maybe it was the exhaustion. I don't know. Either way, it's better that I stay put rather than try to suck it up and make it worse.

I kind of am wondering though why the hell my brain decided that having dreams about Ovechkin and Theodore (Okay, those were kind of nice and sweet, oddly enough) and then me having a relationship with Patrick Kane would be appropriate when I'm not feeling 100%. I woke up and was like "What the hell?"

Yeah, that was my excitement when I woke up this morning. Fun times.

I'm probably going to go to sleep and wish that the order I put in with Old Navy gets here fast. I got a fall coat  (along with jeans and a couple of long sleeved shirts)and here's hoping it comes soon. I'm fucking freezing and my big wool coat kind of seems not to be the right coat for the location.

The other interesting thing is that we're having a wind warning in effect. There's something going on with the systems in the Hudson's Bay, so we are getting 90 kph winds. I am so happy to be indoors at the moment, that's for sure.

Going to nap now.
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I am beat in a good way! Even though I relied on sugar and caffeine (my best friends now. God, if I didn't have cups of King Cole tea during the day, I would pass out) I was all nice and perky and it went smoothly with the kids. I guess that since I am used to all holy hell breaking loose, that a few glitches (like hiding in closets, hot glue in locks and being threatened by people shorter than me is meh to me) are okay by me.

I'm cross-eyed because I need to get back into the swing of things. I am okay with the situation and myself and the people around here. I don't know how things are going to work, but I refure to get out there and worry about them. I don't know what the future will hold, but it will just have to take care of itself. That's about it, kind of thing.

Still no word on my bag. I will call. I also need to get more paperwork done. Monday will come soon enough so that i can take care of it there. It will be done. I just have to have faith and be patient.

I think I will crash soon. It's been a long week and I need to mellow out, meditate and just zen out.
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The wind has been howling here something awful the entire day, to tell the truth. Everyone got paid, so that was a yay! kind of thing. I know I was happy! I can start paying off stuff. I paid off my Virgin Mobile bill and I still have to call those fuckers to see what's going on with my refund, since they couldn't give me any answers on that the last time I spoke to them.

I also still am dealing with my idiot school board and that's a bit of a headache. I will just start gathering the paperwork from the Alberta Teacher's association and the UofA and get my passport sorted out now that I do have the money to get that done. Hopefully they will stop having shitfits about my birth certificate. Ergh.

Today was good for me since I only had them for three classes and I got the core that behaves and does work, even though I have to chase them down and tell them to get out of the closet, (there's one with a washing machine and dryer, so they try to hide in there. Why? I don't know) but they really did a good job with the cookies (simple sugar cookies, but we managed to sell some to the boys running around in the hall) and I was so proud of them. They exasperate me and they are kind of gross with the spitting and picking their noses, but they are sort of cute and make me laugh somewhat. Odd how that goes.

Pizza tomorrow. I think. I don't know how it will go, but i am hoping that it somehow works out. I want to give them a bit of a treat...nah.

Anyways, it's been sort of dark, but okay. I know all I talk about is work, but yeah, that's the path I chose and it's hard work...but when they do something well and when they are proud of's kind of nice, ya know?

One bag is still missing and I am counting down the weeks until Kuujjuaq! Fun times!

One more part to the Sharpie/Jono fic and then...I dunno. I just dunno.

I also have set up my paypal account and I need to pay off and close my Royal Bank account. I don't want to ever deal with those guys again. When I get to Kujjuaq, I'm opening a Desjardin or CIBC account. Fuck it.

And that's all for now. Cheers!
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I was very lucky in that I got a little breather time today before I got to see my students. It was actually good for all of us, since they came more determined to work well before going to the kitchen. They produced evil cookies, but behaved much better than yesterday. Although a couple of the girls freaked at me when I took their camera away after telling them repeatedly that they are not allowed in the classroom. I am guessing she will come tomorrow if just for the camera. I honestly need to enforce rules and although it's not my favourite part of the job, I did learn the lesson that if I try to be nice, it will cause chaos later.

It's also a hell of a lot easier than dealing with a ton of boys bigger and way more rambunctious than these guys. I still remember that my first month in the Scheff had me kicking out at least three kids and getting filthy innuendoes thrown at me non-stop. Gad. So yes, it is tiring, but I have seen the future brother and it is murder. LOL. But yeah. Most of them here are a little immature and teeny, so yes, they go nuts, but they are easier to herd along if things go odd.

I am keeping in touch with a lot of the other teachers and we are comparing notes and trading info and it seems like it's all across the board with all of us. It's the testing time. I figure that it will continue till October. It is a transition, that's for sure.

I also have a phone now! I am well connected now and I am glad of it. I need to have that human contact and it has served me better so far than before. Even if it's just writing emails or on LJ.

The crying jag was like an "Ok, I so needed it." and has gone. I am also guessing it was the hormones. Travelling and the North always causes me some kind of hormonal stress and I don't think I had cried in ages. But it passed and I am on a more even keel. More tired, yes. I think it's the drop in the atmosphere. I always sleep when it rains.

There will be rain the rest of the week. I am thinking that I will have to sleep earlier than I have been doing lately.

One more hour, me thinks then sleep.

Off to read Ovie fics. LOL

Tired out

Aug. 23rd, 2010 07:21 pm
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Today was my first day and I got the usual tests from the kids. We didn't go to the kitchen to bake as I had originally planned because the girls decided to act up, whereas the boys were actually fairly quiet and did a lot of work. I had to run after them to get them to do the minimum of work. I have been told that it will take about a month or two to get them settled down and working on things. I am not surprised. It is the average for things to settle down.

It was a bit exasperating, but it wasn't as hard as the other years where I was in a similar situation. It's not that I'm coasting, it's kind of like "Ah...I see what experience can bring me and it is actually coming handy." I don't know if it's just "You know, I heard all of this before and it's pretty much BS, really." or simply the fact that I don't care what they think as long as they respect the rules and actually do work, but it's not as hard as it was with the previous classes. I have hope that we will reach some kind of working understanding and things will go in some fashion. I hope so and we'll see.

I am just tired and surfing the net when I should be napping. I just don't want to sleep all evening and not do anything. Unfortunately, there's almost nothing interesting on anything tonight. God does Monday blow sometimes. I might just start writing again. I'm sort of playing with ideas for the moment, but I kind of want to write a 3-some with Ovie and Elsid and random girl. The idea is starting to build. Soon, I guess.

That's all for now. I think I will nap.
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It feels like it's crunch time now, since Monday is my first day with my students. I ran into them when I was out on the coast today and one of them knows a couple of kids from the town I was at. I told her at first that I knew them...but then I backtracked when she said she would ask about me and I told her that they didn't know me, because they were in Montreal at the time (which is sort of true, really.) that I was there. I don't care to bring my past into the present, but fuck does it seem determined to come back and piss me off. I was sort of upset at first when this encounter happened, because I really don't want people looking me up. I am not who I used to be. That was me almost two years ago and I have changed. I know it.  And I don't want anyone to judge me on the basis of those years. I thought about it and was like fuck it. That's not my business anymore. Living my life well now is my business.

I'm also sort of lonely. I miss the two J's pretty badly at the moment. I was listening to HS J (We've been friends since I was 17 and he was 16. I haven't seen him since 2008) song and I just got this raw wave of almost physical loneliness. I am resisting emailing the 2nd J because I know I just am going to do it because I'm sort of lonely at the moment and Friday's events kind of got me off kilter and despite being a douche sometimes, he was there when I did need him. He had this almost uncanny ability to email me when I was feeling low. But we're no good for each other. So no.

And another friend (whom I will see in Kuujjuaq in a couple of weeks) has been pining after this one other teacher she met at the orientation.And there's another chick and another teaching hooking up and I'm sort of torn between thinking it's nice and wondering again if I will be like my namesake Hel and remain cold and alone.

I am also kind of fucking annoyed at the genetic legacy at the moment. 

My hair has turned red. Yes. RED. How the fuck did it happen, I honestly don't know. The same red I used to dye it when I was younger. Funny. I got surrounded by kids today and they kept stroking my hair. I really felt weird. And I keep getting asked if I am an "Indian". It's starting to really irritate me, to tell the truth. And they don't mean it in a bad way, really. It's just that the two groups really don't interact much. Except for two towns further south, there's almost no interaction. Maybe in Kuujjuaq, but it's rare. So I'm a novelty in that I'm new and not white. And have red hair.

Blah. That's my whining done for the week. I'm as prepared as I can be for the moment in regards to my classes. I am hoping that it goes not as crazy as it used to back in the day. I have hope it's going to work out.

I've been having dreams again that start Ovechkin and Crosby and Tootoo, (I am sure that the latter is because I'm living in the Tundra. I'm actually across the sea from Nunavut) and I am sure that they will multiply once October gets here.

Yeah. I feel a bit better now.  I really have to go to bed now. I want to be there a bit earlier to get things ready and myself ready.

Here's hoping I get some good dreams.

Have also discovered Hetalia Axis Powers and it looks sort of WTF and amusing at the same time.

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Today was a different day altogether in that it was sunny! I hadn't seen the sun for almost a week and I did miss it. I went to do some work and then went and sat on the coastline and just enjoyed the weather. It was beautiful and I took pictures and updated my blog. It was a lovely counterpoint to last night's mild douchebaggery, which follows in the cut below:

This is NOT my parade )
Other than that, I managed to get my cleaning done and put clothes away that arrived this last Wednesday. Still waiting on my bag, but I think it will show up in time. It's not a serious, holy shit emergency, but I do need to have the other hoodies and t-shirts that I have in that bag sometime soon. Well, it just means that I will re-buy my favourite hockey shirts and hoodies. But i think it will come.

I did have a lovely talk with A about everything under the sun and I told her about the hockey program and I am still excited about the situation. I am such a bloody fangirl that I am all like "WHOAH! I'm going to be working with Joè Juneau!!" and also looking forward to going to Kuujjuaq to get that training and see how I can get stuff sorted out here and there.

I am also enlisting someone to make me an amautiq with the tails and the hood. Here's a link to show what I am talking about: Amauti info.People are joking that I can carry my groceries in it and then my twins afterwards. I am like "Unless I open my closet and find Sheldon Souray or Crosby or Tootoo or Ovechkin, I highly doubt it" But yeah, I hope I can get it made in black with silver, black, red and white piping.

So yeah, that's it for now. Off to read crap and maybe watch some boxed sets of Dr. Who or Moonlight. I'm in a better mood now that I talked about the situation and I won't dwell on it, because it's not my stuff. I know who I am and where I stand. That's all that matters.
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I'm tired again today. It was all about movement. Getting stuff to make with the kids, thinking up projects, cleaning up all the stuff that accumulated and wasn't needed and on and on and on. I need to photocopy stuff for Monday and plan everything for the rest of the week. I also need to get stuff done for the week after, since I will be again in Kuujjuaq for the weekend of mid-September. Shit. I can't believe that it will be September soon. I mean, I know that it's bound to happen, but Christ!

This time last year, I was just trying to get back on my feet and on with my life after being smacked down so hard that it took me a couple of months to get my shit together to actually go and do something productive...and now...I'm working and planning things and trying to figure out how to run things well and smoothly. And looking for banana bread recipes. LOL.

I've also been fancying Alex Ovechkin something awful again. It's his eyes and yeah...I am in a small town, so fancying Ovechkin is the only cure for being in the small town area. It doesn't bother me. It's just the way it is.

I am actually going to just goof off a bit longer and then I'll lie down for a nap. I'm exhausted and I really should be sleeping more than I have been lately.

But yeah, I'm happy about today. I have cheesecake! Whoot!
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  • I didn't update here, but I updated my blog. *Shakes head* Heh. I just don't want to NOT do it consistently. I tried one for the Scheff and it all ended up here anyways. I will post a link up in my Profile for those who want to see it, because it's cool and it has ZOMG! Pics!
  • The other reason was that I've been kind of feeling...weird. Not bad weird, but "I gotta evaluate this shit" weird. I like twitter and I like tumblr and blogs...but I don't know...not as fun as they used to be. I love going on them and seeing the things that are there, but it's not like it used to be. Maybe because I've got a job now that it's starting to fall by the wayside? I don't know.
  • The other thing is that I am going to wear a few more different hats here. I am teaching basically a vocational component that is project based, rather than full on academics. I am in a new town and I am the newly appointed academic adviser for the hockey program, which means promoting, keeping reports, selecting kids and flying out to the capital of Nunavik to do workshops for the program. I will also do library duties on top of that, since it's part of my job agreement. That's going to keep me busy and I am happy about that. I want to make it work as well as I can possibly make it and be a good example. I am living in the town where I will work. It's different than before.
  • I have met a few of the other teachers and one has got me just hissing and recoiling in the warning thing. I guess it was because I saw her when I was walking and I had to do something at the post office, since i have just gotten a PO box. She wasn't warm or friendly at all until I told her I was teaching. She then got friendly. But it made me go cold towards her. I did get proof that I can pass for Inuk. (I had people address me in Inuktitut yesterday already. It was interesting. They speak it pretty fast here) and I can't help but to just wonder why my radar was all off the mark with that girl. And I have a suspicion that it was because she may have thought I was a transplant from another community. She tried to test me by asking where I had worked before and I could see she was like "oh" when I told her this was my 4rth year in a Northern community, 5th year teaching and I did the South Korea stint. Moral of the story-don't fucking judge people. You will get more than you have bargained for.
  • Other than that, the rawness and the feeling of the land being so primal has got me entranced. The waters on the Hudson Bay are so dark blue and tempest-tossed today that I can't help but to stare at them in wonder. The coastline is quite beautiful in its own way. I just love it close it feels to the earth and how the rocks are like the bones of the land, you know?
  • Have almost finished unpacking. Put up the posters today. I will see about getting shelves to put up my collection. In time. Started writing more on the penultimate part. Will hopefully tie it up soon.
  • That's all for now.


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